My heart is beating faster day by day, and I feel like there was a such big hole in my soul, and also it’s been killing me because the pain seems to be stronger than I could keep it away from me.
Every single day you are with me, even it’s not personally, but in my mind, in every thought that passes within my head.
I can’t forget the last night, when you talked to me on the phone, your voice was simply perfect, my hands were trembling , my heart almost stopped beating and I was speechless, didn’t know what to do, didn’t know what I should say.
Indeed, I didn’t even know if I could speak something. The way you spoke with me was so full of kindness, and my eyes were shining with every word. I just wanted you, wanted to feel you, but I couldn’t and I still can’t do so.
I don’t know what I’ll do when that day comes, but I’m still praying and asking God to make it happen, because I’m not that strong guy I used to be.
FUCK!
Nevermind, these words are just thoughts, you don’t need to care about anything.
Oh God, for who am I lying?
-Alexandre Barros-
